Happy birthday luv! ...

Tomorrow is 24th March.... It's McSteamy 33rd birthday.

Ok...knowing him yg sangat tidak mementingkan kebendaan - branded items etc agak susah sebenarnya nak belikan present untuk dier...

Dah laaa gie kerja tak pakai tie - so TIE is a big NO NO!
Ok..baju. Sgt jarang dier nak pakai kemeja...selalu sarung T-shirt jer plak. And then kalo nak beli t-shirt kena ada design2 tertentu ikut taste dier plak. Kalo dier x suker, kompem laaa dier x kan pakai...

Dari belikan baju, McSteamy prefer on books or toys etc..

So for this year...I have bought him some thing. ( tak bleh reveal skang, kang dier baca plak kan )
Hope he likes it... tanpa banyak songeh!...hahahah :P

So this morning, I have difficulties to remember what I have bought for him. Agak lama jugak aku berfikir.... So dari terlupa again, better I list it down here :

2009 : Nickelodeon - Animation Book
2010 : Lupin the 3rd CD's ( complete session )
2011 : T-shirt and perfume

I did asked him...do he still remember what I've bought for him...
Dier jawab..buku jer. Lain sumer x ingat...hampeh kan... Nampak sgt dier appreciate benda yg dier btol2 suka...kah kah kah...

So for this year : Is yet to be reveal...heheheh :D

So here's a birthday wish to the man I love....

Wish you SUCCESS in life and all your dream come true. May all the joy, peace, love, prosperity and happiness come to us year after year. And I thanked God, you are still beside me when I wake up every morning..Happy Birthday my luv!.... Looking forward for your 64th birthday :D

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Uzair Fayyadh is 5!

Alhamdulillah....Harta pinjaman Allah menapak setahun lagi. Fayyadh is a big boy now.....and he has given me a joyous and wonderful 5 years journey of motherhood.

And script Fayyadh lately nie...? " Ummi, biler fayyadh nak ada adik nie..? Fayyadh boring takder geng kat umah "

Hahahhaaha....selalunye Ummi gelak jer sambil jeling2 kat uncle. Fayyadh ingat buat adik tuh macam maner....?

Macam tuh laaa. Nanti ada kat perut Ummi..... heheheheee

Fayyadh sgt, sgt, sgt petah bercakap. Kadang ader je benda2 yang membuatkan otak Ummi nie nak kena berpikir. Kadang lawak, kadang soklan2, kadang ayat penyata.....

And sgt independence. Nak2 dah tido sendiri nie..... and sebenarnya Ummi sgt kagum ngan Fayyadh. Umur 4 tahun sudah pandai tido sendiri...nak compare ngan diri Ummi sendiri....darjah 4 tido lagi kot ngan Uwan and atok... ahahahahaaaaaa :P

Even malam pun dah off diapers. Selalunya train dier pergi pee-pee before tido laa kan. Tapi kadang2 ader jugak yang dier sendiri sedar yang dier terkencing atas tilam. Selalunya akan dikesan, biler seluar tido malam sebelumnya tuh dah bertukar.

Ummi : Nie asal seluar dah lain nie...?
Fayyadh : Owhhh, seluar fayyadh basah. Fayyadh tukar laaa
Ummi : Fayyadh kencing atas tilam ker..?
Fayyadh : Aa'aahh. Sengih2
Ummi : Maner..? tak basah pon tilam...?
Fayyadh : Fayyadh dah lap dah....suar dah taruk kat dalam bakul.

Aaa kan. Dier sendiri dah tukar seluar and sendiri lap....hehehehehheee. Sgt jarang lah dier nak kejutkan Ummi kalo dier nak gie toilet tgh2 malam. And selalunya dier akan pergi sendiri...sebab nak menapak gie toilet lagi dekat dari nak pergi kejut Ummi dulu.

And selalunya bleh detect....biler dier pakai suar terbalik or suar depan belakang.... hehehheehe. Bab nak tgk seluar depan blakang tak reti lagi....selalu asal sarung jer seluar tuh...


Alhamdulillah.... I'm a proud mother!

Ingat lagi dulu maser 1st birthday.....gigi pon x tumbuh lagi, and fayyadh blom pandai berjalan. Compared to other kids yang sebaya. Risau jugak biler tgk anak2 org lain yg dah advance from Fayyadh.

But through out the years...... I learned that every people are unique. Tak perlulah nak compare2 ngan anak org lain. Anak org tuh dah pandai nie....anak org lain dah pandai tuh... Tak payah laaa nak buat stress diri sendiri...Insyaallah....the time will come kan. Tak payah laaa nak pressure kat anak. Kesian dier...

Seronok jugak biler Fayyadh dah besar nie. Ader geng untuk borak....Cakap laaa apa saja...kompem Fayyadh layan jer ...hahhhaaa

Sometimes I wonder, biler tetiba nampak Fayyadh termenung. Entah apa jugak laa yang dier pikir. And sometimes jugak aku nak tau...aper laaa yang geli hati sgt dier tgk kartun tuh sampai ketawa terkekek2....

Iyer....mmg Fayyadh dah besar. Fayyadh dah big boy. And I'm blessed that I'm there by his side.....Barakallah

Fayyadh 5th birthday... And we had a small celebration. Hehehheee, kena buli ngan Ummi and Uncle... :P

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The boy who don't want to celebrate his besday...

My new year baby turns 4 this year. We celebrated it a bit late...2 weeks later on 15th Jan at KFC Wangsa Maju..

Unfortunately, the besday boy is not so keen to celebrate his own birthday. Check out this video :

Sib baik, dier nak jugak tiup lilin tuh.. ahahahaa :P

For this time around, I ordered a cake from my dear friend Aida. You can check out more cakes at : Oven Heaven blog and Oven Heaven Facebook

And the cake is superbbb..!! And taste nice too :)

Some pic during Fayyadh 4th's birthday bash.

My baby boo turns 4..!

Tgk, hanna lagi excited. Besday boy tak nak dok atas kerusi langsung

Present from Chicky...!

Dah tak sabar nak bukak present

Aaaa..gado2 manja ngan Hanna gitu

My darling fayyadh, no matter how fast you grow, you'll always be my little baby... Lu, Lu, Lu..!!!!

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My birthday note ....

Yeaayyy..!! Happy Birthday Me...

I turn 31 today..... single and still NOT available...


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Well, don't feel sorry for me, cause I'm NOT..!!

And alhamdulillah, until today i'm still standing strong, and less complaining. Maybe I've used to this madness and stupidity.

The first year, is the most devastating...but i've passed that now. Not thinking much about that....and sedar2 dah 3 tahun..!!

Seriously, mmg lama...Often, we are thinking too much about the future, as if we'll live longer. Without noticing, we may not be here tomorrow. So, im taking each small steps day by day and living every second to the fullest cherish my life with my love ones.

In my prays, I asked from Allah to strengthen my spirit to face life trials and challenges.... and over the time I realized that I'm getting stronger and stronger..

Mmg laaa Tuhan takkan bagi kekuatan tuh,tetiba jer ko ader super power jadi kuat...haahhaa. In fact, god really works in a very mysterious way. God will put you in the most difficult situation, trail after trial, challenges after challenges........and that is how you're getting stronger

Everything happened for a reason...and for me it's a blessing of disguise

Being almost 3 years in this difficult situation, I realized who my real friends and family are.....and most of my time I can spend for Fayyadh.

Yess, UZAIR FAYYADH.... the reason for me to live my life to the fullest and to keep smiling and smiling.... and enjoy life.

So to-you-know-who : I more than happy, the only moment he can cherish about you is just the iphone and game. So feel free, to prolong this journey as long as you want. I’m not on the loosing side … Seriously, I have nothing to loose...!!

So today, on my birthday I'm humbly ask forgiveness from each and every one of you. Please forgive me for my mistake.

I believe being good or bad, let Allah be the ultimate judge. But, if kau ader sakitkan hati org, menzalimi org and buat salah ngan orang.....if orang tuh tak maafkan, sampai biler laaaa hidup kau takkan senang dan bahagia ....

And thanks for all your prays and supports. Really appreciate it...!



Again....happy birthday me...!! :))

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2010 : A new journey for Fayyadh

January 2010

1st January
- Fayyadh turns 3 years old

A small celebration at home...

4th January
- Enrolled Fayyadh to a kindergarden. And his all excited about going to school....Sgt excited okay...Waking up early in the morning is not a problem....Just bukak lampu, memekak sket nyanyi2 lalalalalaaaaa....bukak kan stokin dier.... tau tau.. " ehhh, fayyadh dah bangun..!! "

Me being so grateful that it's has not to be a scene every morning to wake him up ....tak laa seksa sgt nak kejut dier..And fayyadh pon happy, tak melalak, tak buat hal....so surely his excited and enjoys school.

After school, he will call me up...do all the reporting.. Fayyadh tak nangis, fayyadh tak naughty..fayyadh dah tukar baju skolah, nak makan..pastuh tido...and everytime dier call, kena make sure angkat....kalo tak dier membebel.." Fayyah call, naper ummi tak angkat, tak angkat, tak angkatttt...???" Bla, blaaa, blaaa...Adusss....

Fayyadh goes to school...

Progress at school...

By 1st week, he's singing ABC...kalo tanya aper blaja kat skolah??.... M,M,M ( L,M,N) pastuh... ?? PO, P, Q , R , S, T,U, V, BUBLE U, XS , Y ,Z... ( O, P, Q, R,S,T,U, V,W,X,Y,Z )...hhhahhaaaa...

Lagi, teacher ajar lagu aper ??.... QUEK, QUEK, QUEKK....entah lagu aper yg teacher ajar, tak pernah dengar..ihiihihiii

By 2nd week...he's already have his own territory. Send him to school...hantar sampai masuk dalam. Biler dier nak duduk kat kerusi....tetiba ader budak sajer jer nak duduk kat situ jugak..Fayyadh pon terus tolak laaah dier...And me saying, Fayyadh cari laaa kerusi lain, tak yah rebut kerusi tuh...And teacher ckp, No...fayyadh mmg duduk kat situ, mmg tempat dier kat situ....Owwwhhhh. Budak tuh kena cari tempat lain...hehehheeee

By 3rd week, he's singing..Are you sleeping, are you sleeping...siap dengan gaya2 skali...

All and all...everyday, there's a new thing that Fayyad's learned...balik umah jer ader lah dier bawak citer baru laaa, lagu baru laaaa....And most important thing, I know he's enjoying it...

And getting Fayyadh to sleep, is not that difficult anymore....cam ader remote control plak...Around 11pm, bagi jer susu...tau2 dah terlelap...Takpon, biler dah settle down nak tido, borak2, cakap2 ngan dier...tau2 dier dah zzzzzzzzz..... Sgt senang, tak mcm dulu...sampai kena paksa soh tido...

He has learned caused and effect....means dier dah paham, kalo dier tido lambat, esok pagi dier susah nak bgn....Kalo dah bangun lambat, sampai skolah lambat...nanti dier takleh nak main2 kat school playground....Hummm, he's a quick learner and me being so happy that my little Fayyadh can accept this new environment..

And everyday, before he goes to school...he'll make sure that I will put on his socks and shoes. And everytime he will no forget to kiss me , salam tangan ummi and give me a BIGGGG HUGGGGG....aaahhh, I'm been blessed.... :)


By end of the month..

We celebrated post party for Fayyadh...this year lambat sket...hehheheee..This time around, we do it at Burger King Mutiara Damansara and invited a clown to entertain the kids

To my surprised....I saw Fayyadh's progress..which he now can understand an instruction. Not sure whether he understand it or not....tapi nampak gaya macam paham jer clown tuh ckp aper, sambil mulut nganga2.... and join the other kids in the activity and do what other kids are doing...
For me that's an achievement....sbb before this dier slalu buat hal sendiri jer. Dier lagi suker nak memain jer dari join this kind of activities.....

And best thing...Fayyadh tak takut clown...like before. Maser wat 1st birthday kat Mc'D...dier jerit tgk mascot kaler kuning tuh ( can't remember the name ) and 2nd birthday wat kat A&W..dier pun takut jugak ngan mascot bear tuh...hihiiihiiii

Aper2 pon...Happy 3rd birthday my dearest Fayyadh, dun grow up so quickly laaa...
Ummi loves you so so muchh...muaaaahhhh!!

Fayyadh's 3rd birthday party...

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In less than 1 month...

Hehhehee....couples of weeks to go before my next birthday. Yess, I'm turning 30 soon...

Humm, well being 30...the BIIIGGGGG 3..I think I'm quite comfortable with it...I'm being more confident, more sense of wisdom, more relax and most importantly I'm more content with my own skin. Not much worried about what everyone else thinks and what they want to say about me. Also being not so afraid to make my own way, even if that is very different than what most others are doing...The best thing is I get a whole new start to fix the mistakes I made in my 20s!

Frankly....I'm actually getting thrill to turn 30..hahhahaaa. After all 30 is just a number...what's more essential is how you live your life to the fullest and how you give your life more meaningful. After all, in everything that we do... it just for our own personal satisfaction. It's your LIFE, your RULE and your CHOICE...!!

Aper2 pon....still young at heart kan... :)

Ok laaa...enough of the crap...actually what I want to say is...my wish for birthday present...

I wish...

a) iPhone 3G
b) Netbook
c) RM 5K cash to settle my debts
d)
e)
f)
g)
h)
i)
j)

....to be fill in later...any idea yg best2 tak...??


p/s : Ek ellehhh, harituh cam byk jer terpikir dalam kepala otak nie...biler nak wat wish list, skit tuh jer ker...ahahhahahaa :P...

( and sungguh perasan cam ader org nak bg aku present lah kan...ihihiihhhiii )

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A birthday note to Fayyadh...

Dear Fayyadh,
Last 2 years, you came out of me...
Alhamdulillah....ummi had an easy pregnancy and delivery
You came out so little...2.55 kg
So small, yet so adorable
Our new year baby
The best gift ever from God

Exactly at 100 days
You were admitted in ICU...
Because of the blood clog inside your brain
That was the longest, darkest and scariest 10 days for me
Watching you hopelessly, lying unconsciously

Dear Fayyadh,
Remember when we celebrate your 1st birthday..?
You just started learn to walk,
Your teeth have not grow yet..
Alhamdulillah....after all the complication
You grew up healthy and happily
And you learn things quickly


Dear Fayyadh,
You just turn two years old,
You are a big boy now,
You can now clearly pronounce my name...Ummi
Pointed out where's your nose, eyes and ears
You love to watch Thomas and Dibo
And you bring your Thomas to sleep, put it beside you...
And you love reading as well...including IKEA's magazine and Ucu's school yearbook

Watching you growing up today,
Make me misses the moment when you were a baby
Miss to cuddle you in my arms,
Miss to rock you to sleep,
And miss to hear your baby voices...
Those were treasure moments, that I can't have back
But I'm glad I was there to watch you growing up..

Dear Fayyadh,
Thank you for making me a stronger person, the person I am today..
You keep me strong, to fight all these stupidity and madness
You have shown me that life is wonderful, full with joy and colors....don't waste it
When I'm walking in the darkest valley, you are my source of light
When I'm losing hope, you given me a ray of happiness
And you are my strength to move on and stand up tall...
Raising you up, eventually in many other ways you raise me up too..!!
Maybe you are so small to understand what's going on between Ummi and Abie
But one day, you will understand...

I don't know what will happen to us in future,
What will happen to me...and what will happen to you...
But I do love you so so much.....but I love my life more
Happy 2nd birthday sayang....Uzair Fayyadh

At Burger King, muka happy dapat makan aiskrim

During Hari Raya Qurban

Cakk..!!

Happily splashing around at Dusun Ali King

During Fayyadh 2nd birthday party

Model - pose of the yearr....ahahahhaaa

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It's my birthday....!!!

Yeeeaaayyyy.....to me..!! Next year is going to be a BIG "3".....ehehhehee

I never thought that my life will be like this...didn't foresee that I will be in this situation...Nevertheless, I'm being grateful for what I have now....good health, good job, have a wonderful son and surrounded by people who loves me... I'm better than the rest, but not as good as others

Yup....life is tough...but I must go on, and I'm still standing strong. Lately I haven't questioned much why this thing happened to me. But somehow... I have learned that Allah wants me to be strong....and Allah will make me through this.

InsyaAllah...everything will gets better..!!

And the biggest present is the biiiggggg huugg from fayyadh..

Muah muahh....sayannngg fayyadh

Make a wish......

Fayyadh suap ummi plak...

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